When I was off the caffeine, I went to sleep much earlier at night, but was ALWAYS tired.

Back on the caffeine, I’m awake until silly am at night, but not as tired.

Somehow, more sleep = more tired? Hmmm.

Technically, I could have had a coffee at about 4pm today, but I didn’t.

I’m giving it one last chance, to prove that it’s not affecting my sleep.

If I sleep just as poorly tonight, we can all just agree that caffeine isn’t a cause for my sleep problems.

when you bump into the guy who owns the coffee shop, and try to explain why you’ve not been in all week

:(

Muscle ache is a common complaint during caffeine withdrawal. Which is quite a stupid thing for me to be doing since my shoulder is already tendon fucked ( I still have my snazzy shoulder strap on…it stays on for 2-3days nonstop ).

Mornings are the worst. Mornings are hard. Getting to the afternoon I appreciate the difference between need and want.

I want coffee or Monster because I like them. Because I like the fuzzy feeling I get. Because I enjoy the taste.

Last week, I would have swore blind that I needed caffeine to function, that without it I wouldn’t even get out of bed and I wont have the strength to work.

All in, I’m not a serious caffeine abuser. I’ll have maybe 2 or 3 cups of coffee a day, and maybe 3 or 4 Monsters A WEEK.

The recommended daily safe limit is about 300mg. They state that problems such as insomnia can occur when you are taking 500-600mg per day.

A Monster is 160mg, and each coffee is about 60mg. Even on a heavy day, where I have 3 cups of coffee and a Monster, I’m still only at 340mg or so.

Lack of focus. Poor attention span. Easily distracted.

I keep forgetting words as I’m saying them. I never know the correct word anymore, like, I’ll get half way through a sentence and just stop, because I can’t even think of the word or the point.

Coordination has taken a hit, too. I’m tripping over things and walking into things. It’s like I’m just not awake yet….like, y’know when you get up to pee at 4am, and you just stumble through to the toilet…don’t even put the light on, because you know it’ll just burn your eyes? That. All day.

A root extraction.

Tell you what would make me feel more chipper after that trauma? A motherfucking cup of coffee.

I was looking into it today. Seems the average bar of chocolate contains about 30mg of caffeine. So, I’ve really not actually gone without caffeine.

( perspective: 30mg is about the same as 125ml of weak tea. Tea is 30-60mg per 125ml cup ) 

Maybe I should just call it quits, since I’m sure as fuck not going to give up chocolate.

I feel very irritable.

Is it possible that my skeletal structure was held together by caffeine? Because, my bones hurt today. Like, proper, arthritic style pain.

My left wrist just feels hollow, and like it’ll snap under even a moderate amount of pressure. My fingers are all swollen and achy.

My glasses don’t even feel comfortable on my face, like they are intruding on my nose’s personal space.

So, in summary, irritable. 

Can’t stop yawning.

I bought a carton of fresh orange juice ( with bits, of course ) at lunch, to help me through the day.

As a means of facilitating me in the process of needing a wee wee, 1 litre of juice is ideal.

As a Monster substitute, it’s less impressive.

I feel a little cranky. I wasn’t even this bad when I quit smoking, cold turkey.